Today I was reminded that it has been quite some time since I have cared for a baby. As a Mother, you know best. It has been 12 years since I have had a child. That's a significant amount of time.
My preteen (ugh why couldn't she stay 5?!?) is pretty self-sufficient. My role as her mother is to guide her and help her understand herself and the world around her.
As she grows more and more I have to entrust her to do the right things and help her cultivate critical thinking skills that will keep her away from the poor choices I have made in life. That I got. I can handle this little lady all day every day.
What worries me is after I give birth, I will be holding a new life, a new soul, a new mind. I have been tasked with loving, nurturing and growing this new baby.
I cannot remember the last time I was around a baby! Will my motherly instincts kick in? Will it all come flooding back to me?
The closer it gets to my due date, the more worries come to mind. When I was pregnant with my first I was so confident and prepared. 12 years later I have more questions and concerns.
Like I was reminded, this is what I wanted.
I chose to become a Mother Motherhood has chosen me again, I don't want to fail as a Mother, Giver of Life.
I will say that I am doubly blessed to have so much love and support around me. Everyone is so excited about the new family member that will be joining us soon.