I never thought that a walk in the park would move my soul. Yesterday felt strange. Prince passed and that affected a lot of people, the entire world was mourning. Things were just off. My workday was much more hectic than anticipated, but no biggie right. I looked crazy at work all day so my hair would be ‘right’ for an event I was attending. Instead of going home after work and coming back out to the Southern Women’s Show preview I decided to stop by the park for a nature shoot.
It was a beautiful day, my hair and makeup were on point I was excited about going to meet other bloggers IN PERSON, what could go wrong. I took some great photos walked along the path around the park and soaked in the beauty all around me. Tree, birds, flowers, and a really fat squirrel that was moving too fast for me to photograph. I was at peace.
I wasn’t thinking anything in particular I was just there to waste time and snap some photos before and event. Mind you I was not dressed to be in the woods. As I walked through the park I decided to venture a bit farther, since I had time. I walked down some rocky steps (that should have been the first sign) and found myself on another pathway.
Walking along and taking pictures I came across this gorgeous bridge. It was like I entered another realm. Though it was pollen covered it was so clean and the way the sun lit it up I imagined a serene wedding ceremony taking place at the end of the bridge (deep right) so I crossed Wedding Bridge and started down another path. Guess what I found, water! That’s right a creek running along! I love water! Lakes, ponds, streams, rain (when I can enjoy it from home), the ocean, pools, cups of water….Water soothes my soul.
I think at one point I was a mermaid. When I buy my house it HAS to be near water. So naturally I walk along the water in this peaceful trance looking at the trees, watching the sunlight shine down and I am so calm. At this point I put my camera down and really started taking it all in. There were few people out there so it was just me and I felt like a smile. I felt good all over, no stress, I was in a state of happy that I can’t even explain.
I thought about the grandeur of the event I was attending. No it wasn’t an A-List Celebrity Red Carpet, look Mom I’m on TV event but it was that exciting for me. I still had time so I kept walking, thinking I would be back at the park soon, wrap up my shoot, and head out.
I started seeing the backyards of grandiose houses and I was like hmm…something isn’t right, I should turn around but something told me to keep walking. I walked further and came to another bridge it made sense to cross and it took me to the woods. Not to a path, not to the park, but trees and dirt woods. It was a trail, a hiking trail to be exact. I looked around perplexed, in my mind I say Oh Sh*t, where am I? There are NO maps. Not one. What do I do, I have the urge to sit down and cry because I am going to miss my event, then I’m like what if it rains, I’m out here somewhere not properly dressed to be in the woods, it’s hot, and I’m thirsty…all the what ifs start.
Turn around and go back. Mind you the woods look the same. Everything looks the same because I’m in panic mode. I’m trying to play it cool in case Killer Mike is in the woods looking for a vulnerable victim. My legs were hurting, because I was not in proper shoes, think ballerina flats…again I was not properly dressed, but I was cute though. Go back is what he told me. You know where you are going. You are safe, trust and go back. While this voice was talking my mind was like OMG, I’m going to die, they are going to find me in the woods, dehydrated, I need to call the National Guard, the devil did it….panic y’all. Straight panic.
I was walking fast, almost running, starting to feel anxious, almost terrified. STOP I stopped in my tracks and my mind stopped all the scary chatter. Then I could truly hear and see what was taking place and it was amazing. I stopped and listened and let spirit guide me. I listened and went back. As I walked back I thought about life and how short it is. I made sure that I was present in the process, legs hurting and all, but I was grateful for the entire experience. I passed all the beautiful landmarks I photographed and enjoyed strolling back over Wedding Bridge. I continued walking and eventually returned to my starting point.
What does this have to do with anything, when I made it back to safety lol I thought about what happened. I started with faith, walking taking pictures, then went to the unknown. When I stopped trusting and starting trying to fix things myself, I started to panic and I got myself further off course. I had to be still and let spirit lead me. This month I have gotten so many divine messages it’s unbelievable.
This leisurely stroll in the park turned into a spiritual journey for me. I was out there for about a little over an hour and it helped me to reconnect with my spirit. I believed in myself, silenced the negative and walked away knowing that I am walking in my purpose. I made it to my event early, my hair was puffy and makeup a bit worn, but my spirit is full. The only word I can think of to describe how I felt when I walked out of the woods was RENEWED. I know exactly how to walk by faith and trust the direction that my life is going in, the importance of being fit and experiencing life. I needed this experience so much. I also needed to get out and connect with other women and do adult things!
When I arrived at the Southern Women’s Show I was in awe at the collaborations and sponsors and the amazing way they are giving back. I realized how blessed I was to be there and share in the experience. Check out the video where I talk about my experience on Periscope.